I have absolutely nothing going on at work today so I figured I'd ramble about some things. I just had a really amazing weekend with my girlfriend in Streetsboro, OH. We got a chance to hangout with my sister for a little bit too, which was awesome. I am really proud of my sister. She has always been the overachieving type, and always has huge aspirations for her life. Recently she broke up with her boyfriend of over 3 years so that she could more clearly focus on her future amongst other reasons. I believe in staying with someone you love and making sacrifices for that someone, but I also highly believe in the subconscious requests of our brain to philosophically figure out what we are meant to do here on earth. I see my sister recognizing these things, and making the appropriate decisions to finding her path. I am still finding that path, and it's been extremely difficult. Christine and I are going through a tough time in our lives. I have what should make one entirely happy. I have a great full time job in my field, I have great friends, a loving, smart, beautiful girlfriend and a caring supportive family. Yet, for some reason I don't feel as happy as I could or should. Maybe I am just settling into a role that wasn't meant for me, or maybe it's the distance of my relationship that is taking a toll on me. Either way I feel as if my philosophical journey through life has reached a lull and that something has to happen before I can reach happiness and wisdom. Let's face it, I think most spend their whole lives in the search for complete happiness. I know I need patience, and there are always lots of cool signs that come into my conscious mind to let me know I am getting there. In the mean time I am going to listen to some music, and continue on with my daily routine. Some exciting things are on the horizon!
-Chicken-
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